Monday, October 1, 2012
What is love?
Love is when your brother takes his new Oakleys back because he wanted to visit his sister over the weekend and needed the $.
Sunday, August 26, 2012
time with ones you love is so limited.
Hello...im stepping back into the world of blog. There's a few things I want to blog about but I cant seem to get them all out. Maybe writing this one will help the rest flow? We shall see...
I was talking to my grandmother today, probably none of my readers know her...but thats ok, Ill give you a picture of her. My 'Mom-mom' lives in upstate PA, she lives with her husband and getting to see her is a treat. My grandparents had a rough time earlier on in life. They lived barely making ends meet, they lived without Christ, and they lived through the death of one of their children (my moms sister). Life has not exactly been a cake walk for them. Thankfully they found the Lord through Aunt Wendys death and after much convincing they quit the bad habit of smoking about 12 years ago. Unfortunately their health has been spiraling downward pretty quickly for the last 8 or so years and excelling at a faster speed as of late. For years Ive wondered when the 'ticking time bomb' would go off. When will I lose her? She has congestive heart failure, her weight is not under control, she has chronic obstructive pulmonary disease, gout, and has had numerous mini strokes. Sometimes I look at the statistics and am truly amazed as to how she is still alive. She always tells me that she hears the 'breaks' on her life coming to a halting screech. She says that the Lords not ready to have her in heaven.
I can remember back to so many years ago when I was younger, I was allowed to go and spend time with her and my grandfather at their house. One particular time when I was younger I was up all night screaming because I wanted my mom and dad...they got up early that day and headed to take me back home. We stopped at McDonalds along the way and after eating I decided that I was fine to go back to their house. I still remember sitting in the backseat and telling them that "I was all better now" to which they laughed and continued to drive me back home. It wasn't until I was much older that I was allowed to go back and spend time with them. I have so many fond memories with them. We would always go to the dollar store and I usually had an certain amount of things that I could buy. One time after much convincing that mom let us eat them all the time my brother and I got Sour Warheads...we then tried to sell them on their porch. We weren't very successful but we had a blast, we got in a little trouble when we finally confessed that we never had the candy before but mom would never let us buy them. There were countless nights that we would stay up late playing monopoly with our own rules. We would have mom-mom laughing so hard. There was another night that we were sitting in the living room watching a TV show and suddenly a bat started flying around in the house. We flipped out, mom-mom made me run out of the room to go get pa-pa. I finally got him to wake up and he was able to catch the bat and kill it. We watched every episode of Touched by an Angel, our favorite being the one with Wynona Judd in it...we would cry every time. Every year I would call her on April fools and ask her if her refrigerator was running and that if it was she should go catch it, it became such a tradition that I cant ever try to 'fool' her anymore.
My favorite thing about her though? Her prayer life...whenever I need prayer she is one of the first people I go to. She has told me that whenever she is really worried about me she will get on her knees. Now, this may not seem like a big deal to you but when she gets down its usually impossible for her to get back up. Shes had to have my pa-pa come help her up on numerous occasions. He's told me that he's yelled at her before because its dangerous with her health, yet she still continues to do it. Usually when I am going to take a test I will feel anxiety and then I call her and feel completely at ease when taking my test. Its like she has a special connection. I know one reason why shes still alive...the Lord knew that my prayer life fails so often that I would need someone like her continually praying to get me through school. My mom-mom is one of my best friends, I love calling her and just telling her whats on my mind, knowing that it wont be gossiped about later, I wont be judged and that she will pray for me about it all.
My Mom-mom isnt perfect, and she'll be the first to admit that, but I have learned so much from her. I cry every time I think about losing her and what it will be like to not have her to call and pray for me. I know my time is limited and I need to take advantage of every moment I can with her. I could lose anyone in my life in the snap of my finger and just thinking about this made me realize how much my time with the ones I love is so limited and I need to make more time for them, and remember to show them how much I love them.
I was talking to my grandmother today, probably none of my readers know her...but thats ok, Ill give you a picture of her. My 'Mom-mom' lives in upstate PA, she lives with her husband and getting to see her is a treat. My grandparents had a rough time earlier on in life. They lived barely making ends meet, they lived without Christ, and they lived through the death of one of their children (my moms sister). Life has not exactly been a cake walk for them. Thankfully they found the Lord through Aunt Wendys death and after much convincing they quit the bad habit of smoking about 12 years ago. Unfortunately their health has been spiraling downward pretty quickly for the last 8 or so years and excelling at a faster speed as of late. For years Ive wondered when the 'ticking time bomb' would go off. When will I lose her? She has congestive heart failure, her weight is not under control, she has chronic obstructive pulmonary disease, gout, and has had numerous mini strokes. Sometimes I look at the statistics and am truly amazed as to how she is still alive. She always tells me that she hears the 'breaks' on her life coming to a halting screech. She says that the Lords not ready to have her in heaven.
I can remember back to so many years ago when I was younger, I was allowed to go and spend time with her and my grandfather at their house. One particular time when I was younger I was up all night screaming because I wanted my mom and dad...they got up early that day and headed to take me back home. We stopped at McDonalds along the way and after eating I decided that I was fine to go back to their house. I still remember sitting in the backseat and telling them that "I was all better now" to which they laughed and continued to drive me back home. It wasn't until I was much older that I was allowed to go back and spend time with them. I have so many fond memories with them. We would always go to the dollar store and I usually had an certain amount of things that I could buy. One time after much convincing that mom let us eat them all the time my brother and I got Sour Warheads...we then tried to sell them on their porch. We weren't very successful but we had a blast, we got in a little trouble when we finally confessed that we never had the candy before but mom would never let us buy them. There were countless nights that we would stay up late playing monopoly with our own rules. We would have mom-mom laughing so hard. There was another night that we were sitting in the living room watching a TV show and suddenly a bat started flying around in the house. We flipped out, mom-mom made me run out of the room to go get pa-pa. I finally got him to wake up and he was able to catch the bat and kill it. We watched every episode of Touched by an Angel, our favorite being the one with Wynona Judd in it...we would cry every time. Every year I would call her on April fools and ask her if her refrigerator was running and that if it was she should go catch it, it became such a tradition that I cant ever try to 'fool' her anymore.
My favorite thing about her though? Her prayer life...whenever I need prayer she is one of the first people I go to. She has told me that whenever she is really worried about me she will get on her knees. Now, this may not seem like a big deal to you but when she gets down its usually impossible for her to get back up. Shes had to have my pa-pa come help her up on numerous occasions. He's told me that he's yelled at her before because its dangerous with her health, yet she still continues to do it. Usually when I am going to take a test I will feel anxiety and then I call her and feel completely at ease when taking my test. Its like she has a special connection. I know one reason why shes still alive...the Lord knew that my prayer life fails so often that I would need someone like her continually praying to get me through school. My mom-mom is one of my best friends, I love calling her and just telling her whats on my mind, knowing that it wont be gossiped about later, I wont be judged and that she will pray for me about it all.
My Mom-mom isnt perfect, and she'll be the first to admit that, but I have learned so much from her. I cry every time I think about losing her and what it will be like to not have her to call and pray for me. I know my time is limited and I need to take advantage of every moment I can with her. I could lose anyone in my life in the snap of my finger and just thinking about this made me realize how much my time with the ones I love is so limited and I need to make more time for them, and remember to show them how much I love them.
Wednesday, March 7, 2012
Friday, February 3, 2012
Check this out
The way you live really does influence others, it may not be fun to be different but its worth it to be different in the end.
The way you live really does influence others, it may not be fun to be different but its worth it to be different in the end.
Saturday, January 28, 2012
Heres the link for the recipe
Here is our vegan (we substituted flax seed for eggs) muffins we made. We are storing them in the
fridge to have for breakfast for the week! Great healthy hearty muffin!
Friday, January 27, 2012
Jehovah Jireh
Ok, so I have been trying to find a job ever since Wednesdays fiasco (refer to two posts prior for details). I hadn't heard anything back from the jobs I applied to but, yesterday I signed into my school e-mail account and had an e-mail about my student account. I had some refund money that was sent to me. Normally I would put this money right back into school but, because of the car problem I am going to keep it. So, my car repairs are paid for. God really does provide, even when you don't think its possible. :)
In other news, I have been finding lots of fun recipes on pintrest. I decided that I was actually going to put my pintrest time to use and make some of these. I started off with this one, I made it for dinner tonight. Nice and light and healthy. I loved it! I bought some bread from the bakery too and ate it with the salad. Ill try to give you more recipes as I make them. I know sometimes its hard to come up with new meals to make.
Hope everyone enjoys their weekend!
In other news, I have been finding lots of fun recipes on pintrest. I decided that I was actually going to put my pintrest time to use and make some of these. I started off with this one, I made it for dinner tonight. Nice and light and healthy. I loved it! I bought some bread from the bakery too and ate it with the salad. Ill try to give you more recipes as I make them. I know sometimes its hard to come up with new meals to make.
Hope everyone enjoys their weekend!
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
worrying is like a rocking chair it gives you something to do but gets you no where...
Why do I worry? Why?
Worrying is a natural sin, we realize we have no control so we start freaking out forgetting to realize that God has everything under control.
Today I went to get my jeep inspected. I was crossing my fingers that even though a few things may have been on the line that it would pass and I could have dad fix it when I was home for the next break...ohhh but that would be too easy and wouldn't require much of me "Trusting in the Lord with all my heart..." (Proverbs 3:5)
After the inspection and oil change was completed I found out that I could't pass inspection because I need new break pads, new park break shoes, rear rotors and a new exhaust manifold. *freak. out.* I calmly told the man that I would need some time to think this over and that I would get back to him. He threw out a 'rough' estimate of $400 to fix just the breaks alone. *heart attack* (yes, I'm being a drama queen)
So, I came home and decided to run and take advantage of this nice weather we had today (60 degrees!) On my run I could feel myself tensing up and getting anxious. My chest was heavy and I was having a hard time keeping up with my friend. (ok, half of that is probably because I'm out of shape) anyways...I finally tuned back into what was playing on my iPod. click here to listen I was listening to the words and realized that God can and will take care of my problems.
After my run I was feeling great until I got a phone call. I had met with a family that needed my assistance watching their kids after school everyday while they dealt with a family crisis. I had everything (key word: I, not God) planned out, the amount I would make a week, how I would save it what I would put it towards and BOOM...the family doesn't need me anymore. The kicker of all this? I gave two other job offers up this semester so that my schedule was clear and free for this family.
Here is where the doubt and anxiety kicked in. No money in the bank = no money to afford a bodacious car bill. Dad called me to hear what went down with the car. Of course I just broke down crying because my plan that I had is now destroyed and I have no idea how Im going to pay the bill for the car. Dad reassured me that this is no surprise to God and that He has everything in control. Yes, how true that is but its also easier to say that and hear it than to actually trust that somehow a $500ish check is going to fall in my lap, or during the next Lynchburg rain some dollar bills come plummeting out of the sky.
Shortly after I talked to my dad my cousin Matt texted me and said not to stress because he could find some great deals on parts for me. I wasn't holding on to much because I just know how car parts work: they're more expensive than my wardrobe. Naturally because I was stressed and didn't want to deal with it I got on pintrest...right before my eyes was this quote ""My Child....YOU WORRY TOO MUCH...Ive got this remember? Love God" Wow...so the walls couldn't hold in the tears again. I had a good cry and just convinced myself that God has it all under control.
About an hour went by and my cousin texted me with a price for all the parts... $390. For e.v.e.r.y.t.h.i.n.g. (not including labor...which dad always throws in there, but a batch of cookies is a lot cheaper then typical labor prices) Looks like Ill be making a trip to the PA garage...not Monro.
All this to say...here I am worrying about every little detail, allowing it to consume my time. The time that I should be using to study and take quizzes and plan my lesson for youth group. I wasted my time that I could have spent wisely by wallowing in the fact that MY plans aren't working out and Gods plans are. For now, I have learnt my lesson...rest assured my sinful self will need to learn this same one again soon.
In his heart a man plans his course, but the LORD determines his steps. Proverbs 16:9
Matthew 6:25-27 “Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life?
Worrying is a natural sin, we realize we have no control so we start freaking out forgetting to realize that God has everything under control.
Today I went to get my jeep inspected. I was crossing my fingers that even though a few things may have been on the line that it would pass and I could have dad fix it when I was home for the next break...ohhh but that would be too easy and wouldn't require much of me "Trusting in the Lord with all my heart..." (Proverbs 3:5)
After the inspection and oil change was completed I found out that I could't pass inspection because I need new break pads, new park break shoes, rear rotors and a new exhaust manifold. *freak. out.* I calmly told the man that I would need some time to think this over and that I would get back to him. He threw out a 'rough' estimate of $400 to fix just the breaks alone. *heart attack* (yes, I'm being a drama queen)
So, I came home and decided to run and take advantage of this nice weather we had today (60 degrees!) On my run I could feel myself tensing up and getting anxious. My chest was heavy and I was having a hard time keeping up with my friend. (ok, half of that is probably because I'm out of shape) anyways...I finally tuned back into what was playing on my iPod. click here to listen I was listening to the words and realized that God can and will take care of my problems.
After my run I was feeling great until I got a phone call. I had met with a family that needed my assistance watching their kids after school everyday while they dealt with a family crisis. I had everything (key word: I, not God) planned out, the amount I would make a week, how I would save it what I would put it towards and BOOM...the family doesn't need me anymore. The kicker of all this? I gave two other job offers up this semester so that my schedule was clear and free for this family.
Here is where the doubt and anxiety kicked in. No money in the bank = no money to afford a bodacious car bill. Dad called me to hear what went down with the car. Of course I just broke down crying because my plan that I had is now destroyed and I have no idea how Im going to pay the bill for the car. Dad reassured me that this is no surprise to God and that He has everything in control. Yes, how true that is but its also easier to say that and hear it than to actually trust that somehow a $500ish check is going to fall in my lap, or during the next Lynchburg rain some dollar bills come plummeting out of the sky.
Shortly after I talked to my dad my cousin Matt texted me and said not to stress because he could find some great deals on parts for me. I wasn't holding on to much because I just know how car parts work: they're more expensive than my wardrobe. Naturally because I was stressed and didn't want to deal with it I got on pintrest...right before my eyes was this quote ""My Child....YOU WORRY TOO MUCH...Ive got this remember? Love God" Wow...so the walls couldn't hold in the tears again. I had a good cry and just convinced myself that God has it all under control.
About an hour went by and my cousin texted me with a price for all the parts... $390. For e.v.e.r.y.t.h.i.n.g. (not including labor...which dad always throws in there, but a batch of cookies is a lot cheaper then typical labor prices) Looks like Ill be making a trip to the PA garage...not Monro.
All this to say...here I am worrying about every little detail, allowing it to consume my time. The time that I should be using to study and take quizzes and plan my lesson for youth group. I wasted my time that I could have spent wisely by wallowing in the fact that MY plans aren't working out and Gods plans are. For now, I have learnt my lesson...rest assured my sinful self will need to learn this same one again soon.
In his heart a man plans his course, but the LORD determines his steps. Proverbs 16:9
Matthew 6:25-27 “Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life?
Matthew 11:28-30 Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.”
John 14:27 Peace I leave with you;my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you.Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid.
Luke 12:25 And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life?
John 14:27 Peace I leave with you;my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you.Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid.
Thursday, January 12, 2012
Click here!
Take a look at this link and listen to this kids stuff, God really blessed him with the ability to give a message in a unique and clear way.
Take a look at this link and listen to this kids stuff, God really blessed him with the ability to give a message in a unique and clear way.
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