Big girls do cry...

“Dear Lord I thank you for everything Lord, I pray that you would just protect Jeffrey while he is at boot camp this summer. Lord please help him to get through all that he needs to do. Lord I need to know that you are going to be right beside him protecting him and giving him strength, I know its going to be tough. I know I shouldn’t worry because you are going to take care of him and you’re the only one that is going to get him through but im really going to miss him. In your precious name, Amen.”

This is the prayer of my 10 yr old sister. As I was unpacking my disastrous room I heard sobbing coming from my sisters room. I thought maybe there was a stuffed animal lost or something else was bringing on the tears. When I went in to see what was wrong she told me she was listening to a song and thought of Jeff and just started crying. I asked her which song and she took out his old cell phone and started playing one of his old ringtones he had recorded “If you’re reading this” By Tim Mcgraw. If you haven’t heard it…it’s a heart wrenching story about a soldier who didn’t make it back home. I explained to Natalie that, that song was a little different then Jeff’s situation right now. She said she understood but she is still going to miss him. Jeff took her out a few weeks ago, got her McDonalds and took her to a park and let her play. She told me that that memory meant a lot, and to have him gone this summer and not around to play with her in the pool is going to be tough. As I sat there stroking her head and holding her hand I tried to be tough and encourage her to pray for him when she gets upset…I was able to keep the tears back until she prayed the prayer above, there was no stopping the crocodile tears. We love Jeff and it is going to be tough to not have him around this summer. I pray that the Lord sends him a Godly friend, that God carries him when he can’t take another step, and that he stands up for what he knows is right.

I love you Jeff. :’)

In the pain there is healing, In your name I find healing...

For the first time in my college history I actually don't want to leave this place. I have had a lot of fun this semester and the thought of going home makes me depressed. I hate goodbyes, and honestly I just hate change sometimes. The last week has been such an emotional roller coaster that I'm not really sure how to respond to anything any more. I feel like a bump on a log.

"The pain passes. The beauty remains." ~Pierre-Auguste Renoir

His love is amazing!

Why do I worry when He promises to take care of me?

Thank you Lord for that promise, and for always fulfilling it even when I doubt you.

You are not a God dependent on any mortal man...

Thank you God for the lives that have been sacrificed for our freedom, for those who executed the plan, and for those who are continuing to serve our country. "One nation under God indivisible with liberty and justice for all..."

You are not a God Dependant on any mortal man You are not a God In need of anything we can give, By Your plan, that's just the way it is

You are God alone, From before time began, You were on Your throne, You are God alone, And right now In the good times and bad, You are on Your throne You are God alone

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9xPzTSpbYmk

Amen.