worrying is like a rocking chair it gives you something to do but gets you no where...

Why do I worry? Why? 


Worrying is a natural sin, we realize we have no control so we start freaking out forgetting to realize that God has everything under control. 


Today I went to get my jeep inspected. I was crossing my fingers that even though a few things may have been on the line that it would pass and I could have dad fix it when I was home for the next break...ohhh but that would be too easy and wouldn't require much of me "Trusting in the Lord with all my heart..." (Proverbs 3:5)


 After the inspection and oil change was completed I found out that I could't pass inspection because I need new break pads, new park break shoes, rear rotors and a new exhaust manifold.  *freak. out.* I calmly told the man that I would need some time to think this over and that I would get back to him. He threw out a 'rough' estimate of $400 to fix just the breaks alone. *heart attack* (yes, I'm being a drama queen) 


So, I came home and decided to run and take advantage of this nice weather we had today (60 degrees!) On my run I could feel myself tensing up and getting anxious. My chest was heavy and I was having a hard time keeping up with my friend. (ok, half of that is probably because I'm out of shape) anyways...I finally tuned back into what was playing on my iPod. click here to listen I was listening to the words and realized that God can and will take care of my problems. 


After my run I was feeling great until I got a phone call.  I had met with a family that needed my assistance watching their kids after school everyday while they dealt with a family crisis. I had everything (key word: I, not God) planned out, the amount I would make a week, how I would save it what I would put it towards and BOOM...the family doesn't need me anymore. The kicker of all this? I gave two other job offers up this semester so that my schedule was clear and free for this family.


 Here is where the doubt and anxiety kicked in. No money in the bank = no money to afford a bodacious car bill.  Dad called me to hear what went down with the car. Of course I just broke down crying because my plan that I had is now destroyed and I have no idea how Im going to pay the bill for the car. Dad reassured me that this is no surprise to God and that He has everything in control. Yes, how true that is but its also easier to say that and hear it than to actually trust that somehow a $500ish check is going to fall in my lap, or during the next Lynchburg rain some dollar bills come plummeting out of the sky. 


Shortly after I talked to my dad my cousin Matt texted me and said not to stress because he could find some great deals on parts for me. I wasn't holding on to much because I just know how car parts work: they're more expensive than my wardrobe. Naturally because I was stressed and didn't want to deal with it I got on pintrest...right before my eyes was this quote ""My Child....YOU WORRY TOO MUCH...Ive got this remember? Love God"  Wow...so the walls couldn't hold in the tears again. I had a good cry and just convinced myself that God has it all under control. 


About an hour went by and my cousin texted me with a price for all the parts... $390.  For e.v.e.r.y.t.h.i.n.g. (not including labor...which dad always throws in there, but a batch of cookies is a lot cheaper then typical labor prices) Looks like Ill be making a trip to the PA garage...not Monro. 


All this to say...here I am worrying about every little detail, allowing it to consume my time. The time that I should be using to study and take quizzes and plan my lesson for youth group. I wasted my time that I could have spent wisely by wallowing in the fact that MY plans aren't working out and Gods plans are. For now, I have learnt my lesson...rest assured my sinful self will need to learn this same one again soon.


In his heart a man plans his course, but the LORD determines his steps. Proverbs 16:9


Matthew 6:25-27  “Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing?  Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life?

Matthew 11:28-30  Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.”

Luke 12:25 And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his  span of life?

John 14:27 Peace I leave with you;my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you.Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid.