stuck between a rock and a hard place.

Life has been so crazy weird and I sometimes just dont know how to handle whats being thrown at me. My spiritual life has been spiraling downward and I know that is a huge reason why my decision making is cloudy. I know that I need to stick closer so that He can guide me.

I have been getting so frustrated with people lately, I just dont get why people dont understand standards and where I come from. Its not that hard. I know that I need to let God use me and that my timing is no way near the timing that He has but im getting so tired of the waiting. Im getting tired of people thinking that im better than them because "i dont ____" well..I mess up too, im not perfect!

Im also getting tired of the punches, the words that hurt. Walking the straight and narrow gets old, and sometimes im not sure what has been keeping me on the right track and from rearing off.

Lord draw me close to you and never let me go, help me to see that you are all I need...